Anne Smith :: Blog for February 2011
The sun was out this morning, and I took my coffee up to the rooftop to bask in its rays. Hard to believe, last week Marc and I were in The Bahamas gazing at turquoise blue water and a beautiful 500,000 gallon aquarium filled with tropical fish. Was it a dream?
My bikini, recently unpacked, shyly asked to accompany me to the roof, claiming that she also missed the sun. I strung her up on the highest branch and she shivered in the Manhattan winter. I told her, “It’s the same sun that shone down on you last week, silly!” But I could tell, she didn’t believe me. She asked to be returned to my dresser drawer until June.
I spoke this morning with my girlfriend Kathleen, who is living in Ireland. We discussed, as always, the energies and emotions of individuals and groups. It’s a challenging time for many people. If you are reading this, think about the last couple of months, up to this day….it seems as if just about everyone I know, including myself, is having to go through “stuff” involving big time decisions, balancing acts between self and others, letting go of things that no longer serve self, divorces, relocations, job loss….that’s some stuff, alright! Kathleen, whom I’ve christened “Golden” (in recognition of her sparkling energy, blond hair, and loving Golden Retriever vibe), advised me to “be polite with myself”….I found this to be simultaneously funny and wise at the same time, which is Kathleen’s Way. But if you are polite to yourself throughout difficult times, always asking permission, always saying please and thank you to yourself, you will surely develop your self respect in a gentle way that will extend from your center outward to those whom you come in contact with. It’s an invisible barrier to trouble and conflict!
If this approach is too soft for you, here’s another visualization: at The Atlantis Resort in The Bahamas, there is a shark tank. Running through the center of this tank is a huge clear conduit. One can sit on a tube at the entrance to the tank, and slide down into the shark tank through the conduit. Although the sharks completely surround you, they cannot harm you in any way, as you are encased inside this little bubble, floating through the tank! It’s an invisible barrier to trouble and conflict!
I’m getting ready to record the next 4 songs for my CD, and excited about the process. I’m trying to get back into my Bikram Yoga commitment-it feels good to be in a hot place during all this snow, but wow, it’s hard work! Just finished reading a beautiful work of historic fiction “Dancer” by Colum McCann, based on the spectacular life of Russian ballet dancer Rudolf Nureyev. In my heart, I am a dancer and the magic of this novel completely swept me away. To learn what this man overcame, in order to live his dream is astounding, although I suspect that Rudi was somewhat of a shark himself…certainly not gentle and polite to others or himself.
Time to write some charts…a challenge for me, but not impossible. Puzzled about the percussion chart, consulted a few musician friends….fingers crossed…
Sending you all thoughts of spring and sunshine! Hang in there, it’s not so far away.
Until Next Time, Annie